Do you ever have those mornings when you’re questioning, “What’s here for me?” Sipping your coffee in the early morning silence before everyone is awake and the house begins its all day buzz of activity? Or are you someone who has the house all to herself so the quiet early mornings aren’t beckoning as much as inviting because that’s your normal? Either way, my morning beckoned and as I sat there at my kitchen table contemplating the day ahead after mentally listing all that had to be done (dr appointment, grocery shopping list, thinking about the laundry, the all encompassing – what are you making for dinner – along with ticking off the appointments I needed to make – dog groomer, oil change, etc.), I finally just sat looking outside my kitchen window and relaxed. After all, I hadn’t gotten up at the crack of dawn for nothing! I needed the peace and quiet and I wanted to enjoy it!
But my mind kept wandering back to that question. Not in a selfish way, mind you, but in a big question mark of simply asking now that I’m a midlifer. Do you ever have those moments where you just take a good look at your life and wonder how in the world did I get here?
Perhaps it stems from a conversation I had with one of my sons the other day. I love it that we talk about everything because it’s so interesting to listen to their views on life. He asked me if I had ever imagined moving back home with just my sons. You see, I am divorced and I recently moved close to where I grew up…and it’s been wonderful to be back ‘home’ again and to introduce my sons to how I grew up and to be closer to my sister and her family. I stared at him for a moment becuase I had to think about his question. “No, the thought never crossed my mind when you were growing up. But I’m loving this happy surprise that life’s handed us! What do you think about it?” He really likes it too which is good because you know kids, it could have gone the opposite way! LOL
I’m not quite sure it matters how I got here, but instead the more important piece is taking a good look at life and choosing my next chapter. Because it’s all about choice, isn’t it? We have the choices right there in front of us. Sometimes I think that little girl who was frightened of making a choice that wouldn’t be what the rest wanted me to choose still exists…but her small votes are beginning to be overturned…
There’s a freedom in being in midlife. There’s magic here…do you feel it? A JOYFUL CHANGE is coming for us…get ready!
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Joyful Change With Yvonne 