October begins Breast Cancer Awareness Month which as a survivor, I thought perhaps I’d do a series on it and tell you my story. I’d also like to hold my hand out to anyone who needs a bit of help because this is not a journey that comes easily to those of us faced with cancer. It changes us in many ways.
Having cancer made me more aware that each day is a gift. That to live and to be grateful for The Presents of Presence (my other blog) is key to living this life. I don’t take anything for granted anymore. I appreciate my life and surround myself with people who are loving, supportive and kind. I have learned that there are those who are here with me as life-long companions and those who are only here for a season and I am grateful for all of them.
Cancer changed me in many ways. I learned that I am stronger than I ever knew I was. I found my innate strength through my battle with cancer. While I am almost to the 20th anniversary of my diagnosis, I have had the specter of cancer reappearing for almost two decades and while I feel very lucky to continue to be cancer-free, I am stilled by my doctor appointments even to this day. But it isn’t in my present thinking which is good. I look at the world and her inhabitants differently. My gratitude is immense and I count my blessings daily. To even awaken every morning is a gift. I marvel at nature. I am incredibly grateful for my children, my loved ones and for those who connect with me. I have been given many angels along the way.
While I have endured complications since my diagnosis and the road hasn’t been easy, I have come to know that it was all worth it. I have learned much more than I ever would have in any other way and while I wish I hadn’t endured it, I am grateful for it. I am grateful for the change in mindset, the inner knowing which has come from it and the peace that lives in my heart now.
I am full of scars that one can see and some that aren’t visible to the eye. With each scar, there’s a story of strength and endurance. I wouldn’t change my life and all of the experiences that happened to me. I am a better human soul because of it. I know that life is short and I want to make the most loving impact I can while I’m here.
I have volunteered with the American Cancer Society, helping other women through their Breast Cancer journey. I have privately helped others as well. I volunteer with other groups online to hopefully guide other people battling cancer to peace.
I am here to help in any way I can. Reach out if you need a friend. I’m listening.